This post started off 6 weeks ago as a story about my purchase of a new power drill as a gift for myself. Well after milling over that too many times, it was not to be. But it got me thinking about power - you start out in one direction and find yourself on an unforeseen and completely different path if you go with the flow. But the theme is the same - power - Who's got it, how to get it, what the heck to do with. My first grade elementary class performed the play Cinderella. Of course I, like any sensible girl, wanted to play the lead role. Who doesn't love a rag to riches story? But alas this pretty little girl named Norma who only ate white bread sandwiches with the crusts removed was chosen for the lead Now the fact that I remember that bit of minutia from nearly 40 years ago is frightening since I can barely remember any of what went on in my life yesterday. Actually it proves that I have been carrying that little piece of "here's one more way I didn&
With a New Year comes another chance to manifest in my physical life what I've carried around in my head for years. I brought 2012 in quietly with calm celebration with family and more than a few swigs of Bellini but this year there are no resolutions to find the perfect career path, become vegetarian, lose weight, get out of debt, save more, go on "X" number of dates, play hostess more or get my travel mojo back. Of course, I still want to do all of that. But this first week of 2012, one of the most auspicious times of the year for me, I have chosen to celebrate my accomplishments of the previous year. I learned all too suddenly and sadly how fleeting life can be. And the postponement of desires, joys until ... can sadly become never if one waits too long not knowing the hour of our quietus. Through gratitude and reflection I hope to propel myself forward in the new year while living and feeling more in the moment than ever before. So here we go. In 2011 I:
and right now my life hurts like brand new shoes to quote the wonderful India Arie. For the second time in as many years VBG has fallen on challenging times. And rather than this time being familiar ground, I feel I am in uncharted and far more treacherous waters. And anyone who knows me, knows too, that one of my least proud personal factoids is that this Voluptuous Brown Gurl never learned to swim. Six weeks ago I spent my last day at the "new" job* I'd so gleefully chirped about in a post in January 2012. My departure was unexpected in timing (I thought I had about 2 months before the clock ran out) but more than slightly welcomed. I'd known fairly soon after starting that it just wasn't the place for me but it was bearable. As I was just coming off half a year of unemployment, I thought my resume might look less conspicuous if I stayed put a little while - like a year or so. When I started the job*, I worked a 4 day/32 hr week which was a
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